Anagha Writes

Growing up, I didn't had much influence in life or someone to look up to, or someone to guide me, neither any loving friends or a friendly family or anything at all as far as I can remember. It was tough.. I could say I somewhat parented myself and taught survival skills, unlearned many things which I imbibed from my family and surroundings. Atleast I am proud of myself for where I am now, but childhood and teenage was hard... It's like we weren't a privileged class, I grew up in a lower middle class family, added to that people i was surrounded were so ignorant, you know right according to Indian standards to be labelled as pretty you have be fair, well being born in darker complexion, I was a disgrace to everyone around me, my ignorant relatives were so mean to me, there were times when my own brother, grandmother just made me feel bad about my looks just a lot of times, even my own mother, she had called me names and even told me, if I am dark, it's a bad thing, I wi

Do you like the inner idiot in me?  We cant always act or pretend to be perfect... sometimes I like it raw, I dont want to fake it, let it me myself, my awkward self.. if you're aren't ready bear with that I don't think you worth a chance in my life

21 years and I realised, what i am lacking in my life, I was lacking me, I was crushed upon their feets, it was that i lived through all the judgments i faced in life and tried to fit in the box they made for me. Being from a lower middle class, who were of not that of intellectual class i grew in a harsh environment, i saw myself through the narrow minded eyes of them.  Now being a fully grown adult I realise, where it went wrong and I am capable of re figuring out everything and now it feels like I am so accomplished and I am proud of my hard works and where life has taken me.  Now coming to the concept of marriage. No way I am getting married at anything less than 27 or 28. I am not them and I dont view the world same as them. As a sane person I'd say, untill you explore more about you will never know how much graceful and lively you can be..  Marriage is the not the ultimate goal in life, I see many people of conservative indian culture say otherwise, especially those among low

I know how it is Anagba... i wanna write about everything but pardon, i can recall even my own words and thoughts either.. :) If i could describe my life especially last few years since i joined college, it was all about people pleasing, caring too much about what others think of me, and assuming that i am a over burden and annoying, people hates my company. I fucking wish there existed someone in this world who genuinely likes me for who I am.  Oh you fucking say I have a family? But fuck what... they are too idk what to say we dont have a good relationship though. I wish situations were different or ah no i cant out myself.  But how about if I had a different parents and born somewhere else..  But then this anagha would be incomplete. Me wouldn't have ever arised if it wasn't for this situation.  But that's the irony.  I try to love my current self but somewhere down I am wishing things were better..  Fucking hell... what am I even going through. Bloody shit life.  Fuckin