Anagha Writes

Now! I'm sitting in the terrace staring at the blue sky! Now a cold breeze just gave me chills down the spine.! I can see a Eagle soaring high up in the skies! I wish I was like her spreading her wings and soaring high up again and again in a whirling circle! With no worries and commitments, she lives a life of her own dreams and being carefree! She doesn't care about anything as long as it's not thunderstorm!!! I wont say I'm a hopeless romantic or awesome person because sometimes I might not be ! I'm a victim of mood swings so I assure that even though I dont feel good always. I pretend and try to be Nice with everyone!! Though people are mostly disappointing!!  I always wonder why looking at sky brings back lot of nice memories of past? Maybe because sky is something which brings tranquility to my wandering anxious mind!!! Don't you think, sometimes it's good to be left alone? I mean when I'm alone I like to stare at sky and it conjure me into my own

•The one who have seen the worst in me and still loves me! •The one who appreciates me for the hidden talents •The one who points out the faults in me and helps me to clear it out •The one who have no shame to share wierd likes and imaginations. •The one who is gonna be there with me during the bad and good times.  •The one who is ready to let me song for him •The one who likes to travel around the world with me. •The one who tries to bring out the stronger me in me. •The one who helps me to face my fears and get over it  •The one who likes to wander the corners of the Streets with me. •The one who have all ears for me. •The one who likes to experiment new things with me. •The one who is ready to hear all my rants •The one who lends a shoulder for me to cry on •The one who is ready to bear my stupidity and Sarcasm  •The one who is ready to feel the cold breeze, the ocean, the sky, the mountains. •The one who is ready to give me endless hugs and cuddles •The one who is lazy as me, and r

My happiness shouldn't depend on people. It should be in search of enlightenment. I should be in search of things what makes me smile, people who tell me I'm the best, and fulfilling my duties in order to achieve my dreams!! Believe in yourself.  I don't want people to see me as a piece of trash or fragile!! I should he who I'm when I'm alone. The Ferocious Anagha!! Let the crowd believe what they want!!  Treat yourself as the best thing. You're no way inferior to anyone. Open your mouth and speak for yourself. !!! You're the best Anagha!!! I'm trying to find happiness and make myself happy and do the duties assigned to me. In search of my own happiness.  In this journey. I'm trying to be nice. Even to people who are rude and selfish and sour to me. Because my God asked me to treat people as good as I'm and not the way how much bad they are!!  I believe!! I can reach the skies ! :)

Some might have a idea that I'm rude and fragile  Some think im too boring Some think I'm sad and depressed Some think I'm  very dumb Some think I'm awesome Some think I'm a competitor to them.. Whatever the shit!!!  I'm a person with my own goals and ideas and thoughts!  I've no intention to be a competitor or to please anyone.! I just want to nice and good! I realised that being humble is tooo underestimated and people take us granted. Better keep our standards and make ourselves away from hypocrites! ©anagha_

Honestly I've no idea I'm like rest of the 7.7 billion people. But something about me which makes me special. But even idk what it is.  Meaning of life.. I think just get through our fears, face the battle called life and come out as a warrior. To bring out the strong confident me in me, and find out what good I can do to the fellow humans .....                Many of us fails to get through the tough phases in life. Even I'm having tough phase now, struggling wish I could give up everything and die but idk something is holding me back.    Some kind of positive energy Is holding me back to earth and giving motivation to move forward everyday I believe that unseen force is called God. ©anagha_

They told her 'you're good for nothing'! So as a kid hearing this shattered her small heart! So she believed them!  She hides behind everyone because she believes that she is worthy of nothing! Remember what you're saying to your children in thier childhood, because it have a big impact in thier life.  As a kid I suffered bullying from my family and they labeled me as the ugliest creature. So it's now like a crater in my heart. How much they compliment me or say good.. I'm just old sad me because the words they told me once are deep seated in my heart.  There's always a chance for improvement but I tried my best still all the old memories still haunts me..   I wish I was the confident young women I always dream myself as.! ©anagha_

I really want to be a strong independent women like I dream of myself, but I'm having trouble implementing it into reality! I just want to be a women of worth! Who have a voice and her own opinions! A women with class and attitude! :( but unfortunately I'm not able bring out the real me.. feeling like some kind of restriction:( the way society moulded me or the way they treated me has obscured that part of me! 

I really dont know. I'm not living the way exactly the way I want my life to be.. I'm living a completely fake life. Pretending to accept things even when I'm not okay with it, not doing the things I really wants to do.. also to travel and see places unfortunately I'm not rich enough and lot of commitments in life keeps me away from living a carefree life I always wanted to be! 🙁☹

I don't know what or who I'm! Sometimes I'm a completely different person but with some people I'm extremely shy and awkward:( ! I feel like I'm spoiling my beautiful life, like it's never lived!  Maybe comfort zones differ?

I'm Falling apart,  still I'm trying to keep my broken pieces together and pretending that I'm fine in front of everyone 🙁☹! This thing called depression is tearing me apart! It brings me nothing but insecurities, sadness, absent mindedness, feeling of nervousness about everything and so called good for nothing!

Once we talk to them and get to know them.. all the superficial aspects just disappears.. its just two soul communicating.. so its all a soul connection. Whatever. ..  How drop dead gorgeous she is? What if she mistreat u and insults u? Does her beauty saves her from being a bad person?  So no its all about the personality and how a person behaves.. ofcourse we all like to see a cute face? But deep what we should look in a person is how much good we see in her eyes?!  Physically anyone can be Gorgeous but being Spiritually gorgeous is a different thing!

I wish i could run away from here, and block everyone i ever know and start over everything new and fresh!

I wish i could hug you now and shed my tears on your shoulders. I'm now looking at the sky above, because atleast it gives a relief that we both are beneath the same blue sky! I have a tons of fantasies and stories to tell you! I know u will be interested to hear it, i hope you're there! Lots of love! :) stay safe babe! Our love story is being written in heaven! I will wait patiently untill jesus brings a right time to makes us meet!  Its okay currently u might be with another girl, but its ok, once u r mine, i will make sure to never let you go! Regards,  Yours loving future wife! 😇👸🏽🤴🏽 ©anagha_

Can't believe how fast time flies?  Landed in Adulthood and...Realizing that choices have consequences, and that nobody is responsible for my life but me. Responsibility or the consequences of not being responsible. You no longer are sheltered under the wings of your parental units and have to actually answer for your bad decisions. All is not lost! You grow a lot from your mistakes and learn to appreciate the elders in your life for their knowledge. ©anagha_

We all have demons inside us! We decide when to let it out!  ©anagha_

Will you marry a clone of yourself ? Think about it? Someone aweosme.. who clicks with your idea of jokes and thoughts..  someone who you can depend on whatever the situation. Ask them too afraid to ask questions! ©anagha_

Sometimes I prefer not to talk with anyone anymore! I feel better not to get involved in useless conversations. It's better to talk with myself in head rather than getting disappointed at thier thoughts and views. They can never see the way I see things. !  The vision maybe same but the views are different! So I rather stick with mine!🙂 ©anagha_

Hate my life. Sick of feeling lost, having no purpose in life. No motivation to do anything. On my bed most of the time. Failing everything. How do i disappear completely? ©anagha_

How is being lonely a thing when there are so many people

Its 7am and 2 yrs back when I was preparing for entrance exam i still remember at 7ams it was a bold me, a hard worker, who worked hard day and night and she had a aim in her mind! She worked towards it and finally achieved it. Now lol. 7am I'm awake because I'm wasting my time on internet. 2yrs back I was wake because I was studying for my goal.  Well what now.. after getting into it. I even dont know what I'm doing with my life rn lol?  Hate my life. Sick of feeling lost, having no purpose in life. No motivation to do anything. On my bed most of the time. Failing everything.

I wish I could get back the lost time.. I wish I could get back the lost happy me. I wish I could stop pretending to be okay even when I'm not. I wish I could stop being over sensitive. I wish I could re write my story. I wish I could swim with the dolphins. I wish I was better. I wish I could stop all this drama. ©anagha_

I'm a person who is emotionally vulnerable! So I get sad for small things..  I'm easily susceptible!! I get sad easily for everything and I blame everyone for my misery. They play a part for being rude.. but as a strong independent women I should care less for what they say or do!  I wish If i was caring less about what anyone thinks of me my life would have been much better!  I've everything a girl could ask for! But my stupid feelings drain my energy and life.. my depression keeps me away from studying:( ©anagha_

Being a young Adult! I'm being dragged into realm of work, worries, frustration, rejection, heartaches! ©anagha_

Dont let anyone break your heart! Sometimes it's better to be alone. Its gonna teach you how to be strong! ©anagha_

Even I don't know me very well, I'm unsure of my capabilities,  my potentials, my enthusiasm.! But I'm sure there's a part me which even I dont know which is capable of doing innumerable things, she is brave and bold, she knows what she is doing with her life. She stands on her own feet. But the real question is How do I bring her out?? Now everyday I'm facing is sad, pessismictic fragile me! How do I bring out my potentials? Atleast pretend to be confident and happy untill I bring that loud, screaming bold me out! ©anagha_

Honestly I've no idea I'm like rest of the 7.7 billion people. But something about me which makes me special. But even idk what it is.  Meaning of life.. I think just get through our fears, face the battle called life and come out as a warrior. To bring out the strong confident me in me, and find out what good I can do to the fellow humans .....                Many of us fails to get through the tough phases in life. Even I'm having tough phase now, struggling wish I could give up everything and die but idk something is holding me back.    Some kind of positive energy Is holding me back to earth and giving motivation to move forward everyday I believe that unseen force is called God. ©anagha_

I'm tired of everything.  I wish I could die tomorrow peacefully after having full of my favorite food, friends and family are here and I'm listening to my favorite music and then kiss my mom and dad and then in a moment God should take away my breath and then this lifeless body of mine lay here.. then eventually, they will bury it after some rituals, only thing that belongs to me in this earth is a jar of ashes. I don't own anything else.  Maybe my parents and family will weep and will be sad about my demise.  But life goes on.. they eventually have to realize that I'm no more . And have to move on..  Afterlife of mine, honestly I've no idea. Hope God will accept me because I haven't done much sins. All I did was I just have some anger issues so sometimes I used to shout at parents.  I was a good human when I was alive. I used to spread smile and help people. Though they was rude at me. Once I'm gone. Nobody owes me and I dont owes anyone.. Maybe I've t

You're born not to please everyone,  but to attain individual goals! To go and pursue your own goals!! Everyone might have different image for you in thier minds. Dont let people's view about you decide who you are.! You should know who you're and what you want from life. They might want different things from life. But I'm sure of what I want from my life.  Maybe they want a good family life, kids, marriage and career! I do want those but its secondary only. My priority goes to Living the life to the Fullest! •to enjoy the ocean •solo travelling •travelling on window seat with hair blowing in the wind. • seeing the dusk, dawn •kissing infront of Eiffel Tower •meet new people •learn new cultures •see the Northern lights •step foot on all 7 continents •getting my cute doggos •attent the concert •make friends with random strangers •be the extrovert I always wanted to be! •find true love of life who is crazy as I'm. •go for stargazing •swim with the dolphins  •trekking,

The angels have never left us, they are all around us. ▪They live in the smile of a young man carrying heavy bags for an elderly woman. ▪They light the eyes of a complete stranger rushing faster than a heartbeat to return a dropped purse. ▪They lift the arms of friends comforting each other when their cheeks are stained with tears. ▪They give strength to brave souls who rush into harms. ▪They live in form of people with big hearts who is lending hands to those who in trouble. ▪They live in the form of people who spread smile wherever they go! ▪They live in the form of a daughter's forgetting her priorities to get back to old sick mom. Our angles didn't go anywhere, if you know where to look.

Its a battle! battle inside my mind! demons fighting inside, judging me, I'm criticizing myself, I even don't know what I'm doing with my life! I'm judging my own existence! Do I really matter? What's the last time i ever smiled whole heartedly! I've come across a lot of cunning people in life! They made me realize everyone is not as it seems! I would do a lot of favor for them, but these people can't even do the same for me! A millions thoughts on mind and a racing heart! I don't know with whom should I share this or where to pens out!  Won't they criticize? Does this even matter to them? Literally noone really cares.  I wish I could stare at the beautiful sky forever! I don't think any guy could ever make me happy As much as the blue sky! As much as the Music of piano! As much as laying there on a country field! As much as stargazing! As much as 5am's! As much as seeing the ocean shore! People are transient!  People are very unreliable!  E

i wish i could just wake up with someone loving me, just us two, cuddled up together, not caring anything about the world but ourselves and how comfy and happy we are i wish i could wake up into a world where im not sad and alone everyday sometimes i'd also like to sleep forever, live in a dream where im not alone anymore, im happy, with a boyfriend that loves me, and we live together in this beautiful apartment in one of the most beautiful cities in the world...just us and no one else i wish i wasnt alone...even now ...i just wish i wasn't alone i dont wanna be alone anymore... ©anagha_