Anagha Writes

Genuine and achievable.. 1. Learn piano 2. Get a dog 3. See the Aurora borealis 4. Visit Norway, sweden, iceland 5. Make snow man 6. Visit Thailand, Maldives 7. Visit Italy, France, Germany, Greece, 8. Visit USA, Russia, 9. Own home, decorate the way I want it, lovely lights... 10. Refrigerator with food all day :) 11. Learn cooking 12. Learn a new language. 13. Do a research about what I'm passionate 14. Visit parts of india, see people's lives, learn from little things. 15. Get my parents gifts and tell them how much I love them :), i wish to hug and kiss them in forehead, honestly i haven't ever did that in ages... 16. To revisit my old home and recollect all lovely memories i had here.. i can never forget the beautiful memories, me as a person how I grew up with my family and cousins... the shared joy and laughter... little childhood moments but all those are wonderful memories now. How I grew up with my family, each day passed but we never realised, it's the time t

Once again thank you guys, you guys did a amazing job and made me happy.  Those every single wishes meant a lot, even the people from whom it was unexpected and those tons of status from u all made me really happy.  And seniors, thank you... I'm glad, I never thought I meant this much to you all.  I thought i was a side line character to everyone's lives. Now glad, god proved me wrong.  I gotta remember " Always remember, you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, smarter than you think, and loved more than you know."  I couldn't be more happier than this.  I believe it's my gods work, he had seen my tears, i cried a lot in the morning, it was a deep crater in my heart, he couldn't bear the pain I was undergoing I wanna first of all thank my jesus for making me realise how much I'm loved and wanted than I thought. How much my jesus loved me. Thank you...😭😭😭😭 I could realise now all my unwanted thoughts were bullshits, they are all kin

 This 21st birthday, thank you lord once again for all your blessings on me, im really grateful to u, In this birthday my wish is, to grow into a better person, a stronger and courageous version of me :) the high spirited girl who chases her goals and love her family, not getting influenced by wrong lusty things of this world. To grow into a good daughter, to respect my parents and be obedient to them To get over my shyness, build my self esteem and grow into a wiser version and stop getting affected or upset by unworthy things To study my portions deligintly and and grasp the concepts and grow into a good empathetic doctor To lead a meaningful life, do worthy things than getting influenced by wrong priorities. do not chase love, u will find it when its meant to be, so dont worry about it :) Dont over priorise people, those who are meant to be will always love you :)

In the world full of fake love and affection, you should realise only hard stone in your life who is going to be with you through your thick and thin is your family and loved ones. I'm grateful to have a wonderful family who cares for me. Though I'm not much close with them, they care for me and I know I love them. Other Loved ones include some worthy good friends not the fake friends who stays with you for their selfish needs. And a loved one that's why we call it, Better half. Which is not like these days people show off for in the sense of lust or romanticism, which is all about attraction to good looks, money, fame and for all selfish needs. Real love for a partner is something deep, which develops over time you fall for their personality and behavior, a deep connection. So you don't have to fall in love 56 times to experience love, its about meeting the right one and spending the rest of the life with them. Better half is someone who comes to shade your flaws an

20 years of life as a girl, I've stayed behind everything and worried about everything and everyday used to cry because of my appearance, i was shy and introvert because I used to think it was all about appearance and people will hate to be with me. So only option was to be a people pleaser and agree with whatever they said..  I had no voice of my own. I was a sideline character in everyone's life.. I had enough from everyone..invited people's toxicity into my life and it messed my 20 years of life, I was a people pleaser, placed people's need before mine, got mistreated, disappointed, betrayed by them, cried myself to sleep because they avoided and ignored me I was a loner mostly, they disagreed with whatever I said, they considered me dumb and not enough.  They said I'm not smart enough, not attractive enough, but young naive me believed them... They made me feel I'm ugly and not good enough, all the chantings I heard since I was a kid, "you're unattr

Broken but healing. Sad but pretending to be happy and assuring myself that I'm the best version I can be. Unattractive but trying to find beauty in my ugliness. Unhealed childhood traumas and judgements, yet strong enough to move on and she craved a better future for her. Unsurety and hopelessness yet brave enough to wake up everyday and fight the same demons inside her head.  Dissatisfied and disappointed at the world and life yet brave enough to push herself further each day. I hope one day she will find her inner peace, maybe dying or living in peace. Yet to know. ©empty_inside

Future plans  I'm thinking about giving plab. Because uk would be a better choice I want a better future for me. That would give me better salary, more independence, living the way I want, more free hours, less hectic, away from people I hate, can go to party, can be a a new version of me, confident and a smart girl I dream for myself, can date and fall in love, away from conservative shackles, travel and explore and experience many amazing things in life :) Drawback is staying away from family is hard, I can't let my old parents stay here all alone. I should be a helping hand at the same time I can't let my dreams go...  Also home sickness and missing my relatives who I grow up with..  Also missing my land, many ordinary yet amazing simple things life has to offer here..  Settling here is a big deal, my life will be confined and gonna just be a wife and doctor, but never going to be a mom anyways.  The life will be narrow here. I really don't want that, those hectic ho

They are nice people, but I wish they were better. Deep inside yeah I love them and thankful for everything they did for me, if it was without my parents I would have never gotten this far. Thankful to all their hardships and sacrifices for me.  But they are not the best parents, they really don't know what exactly a kid need, its not materialistic love, it's more like emotional support.   As a kid they never bothered to ask how I was feeling or all the lovely things a parent would ask their little ones. I grew up emotionally distant from them, now it's a big gap, they can never fill this anymore, that void will be always there. I never shared my problems with them and I never will.  That connection has to be established in childhood, now I can't ever be close to them, there's always that gap,  I'm shy or I don't feel like I should talk to them about my problems, they wouldn't understand.. they don't know what's a good parenting is. I'm prett