Anagha Writes

I can't go any further! I'm just tried outside and broken inside!! I hope someone could hold me and let me wet their shoulder!! Why is it just me always?  Why does life to be sooo hard on me!!  Disappointed at everything and everyone!! Is there any temporary escape! Away from all bullshit! I'm just sad! Sick of everything! I wish I could cry in a corner alone!  But tired of acting okay!! Those prickly people sucks out all my happiness and energy!  ©anagha_

Sometimes I feel like I'm a loner. I've nobody I could really relay on but. But in real I think that's good. Nobody feels the same as I feel about a particular thing or topic. There comes misunderstandings so it's better being on safe side being a loner than being surrounded by fake acquaintances.  I knew a girl, she promised that she would be there for me always and poured some fake positivity.  Now her hypocrisy and fakery is out. Yeah people pretend to be nice, but in real they really dont care. Only person I can relay on is me and myself.  My goals my dreams my thoughts are never relatable  to them, untill I find someone who clicks with me, better I be a loner. ©anagha_

Some beautiful people can overcome the fakery and misconceptions directed at them. Some cannot. For some, their beauty results in expectations of special treatment. You have to pity these people as age takes away their beauty. For many, it is the beginning of bitterness. Fortunately, I guess, beauty loses is power with familiarity. This happens when men marry beautiful women. After a few months, the beauty doesn't really matter. The inside matters. This means there'd better be something on the inside. There'd better be more to the relationship than physical attraction. So yes, men want beautiful wives or girlfriends. Evolution, which is only interested in human survival and reproduction, made us this way. It's instinctive. But evolution also gave us brains, emotions, insights into ourselves. We'd better not ignore them.

At this daring age we feel like lust is love.  But it isn't,  love is different. The way I fall for again and again for someone's pretty look or continuous stalking or sweet talk with them doesn't really mean you're in love. It just mean that you're trapped! Trapped in a vicious circle of obsession! Real love is when the other person is ready to sacrifice anything for you, staying by your side, your worries means theirs, they know what's good for you, advices you for your well being than staying together and waste each others time, try to bring out the better and stronger you, motivates to study and build a future than dreaming a family life together. The way they cares for your feelings. And you really mean something more than a piece of thing to get laid with.  He should be able to see her naked soul than imagining her naked body. Tbh I never fell in true love yet, as of in romantic way. But yes I've true love for my parents and my family.  It doesn't

Just tired of everything! Dissappointed at everyone and everything in my life! There's no shoulder I could relay on!!  Family and Real life friends don't really care about my feelings. Also I'm struggling. I literally have no motivation to study I'm always wasting time on internet talking with people. Because as soon as I open book all regrets and sad thoughts come up!! I'm losing my eye sight I think. Even with specks I can't see longer distances. And I suck at everything and I'm socially awkward! God please take this life! I've asked you this a million times.. but u never granted this. Hope you will grant this wish soon! A blissful escape! ©anagha_

There's 7.7 billion people here. Get over it, he's not special. I guess!😨🤧

I wonder why I'm a sad Adult! I wasn't like this during my childhood, I was outgoing! I was kinda smart kid who cared about nothing but lived for her own happiness.. she was charming and smiling! She was bright! She had lot of passion within her! She believed in her dreams!  Though there were incidents when I hid behind my mom! Overall I was a carefree person! Now I'm trapped! Shackled inside a trap of despair and sadness! Now I wonder why did I grew up!? To feel this pain ? Maybe!  But I wish I was that charming 10yr old me😶

Few years back I was a little girl and I used to believe and imagine that one day my soul mate will come upon as a Angel and will rescue from everything and be like a handsome prince and then the fairy tale begins with giggles, laughter, sarcasm,  fun and romantic moments! Never thought any further or anything!  Now I'm realizing! Life is not as it seems as i imagined once! Its complex and complicated!!! There's no Angel gonna rescue me ! I've to stand for myself and bear with my own shits in life!  But idk if I can go any further!! Currently entered into 20s. I'm really having the worst days of my life. !!!  I can't blame anyone!!  I've no choice but to continue this and succeed someday!  So I've to remember there's no Prince coming on a galloping white horse to rescue me! ©anagha_

I've forgotten who I am by pretending to be someone I'm not, how do I find myself again?

Dont let anyone know your fears, your depression, your worries!!!  Most of them are happy that you have them!! Some things are really meant to be kept inside!! No one really cares!! Everyone have thier own lives. Nobody wants to invite negativity to their easy going life.  Better pretend to be awesome and happy and show off the best of yourself to the world! ! Not everyone deserves to know the real you!! Your feelings worth!  They all can pour out some buttered words which they didn't even mean! Remember your worries are not theirs!!  Sometimes, some people are lucky! There comes some Angel disguised as human to comfort them! They lend you a shoulder to cry on!! It can come in the form of your significant other, parents, friends or anyone!! Those kind of people give us will to move forward!! Well even I don't have such people in my own life. Maybe there might be something which makes you happy! For me its travelling and writing! So find out what makes you happy!! Live for your